.Monday, 22 October 2007 '
this is definitely gonna be a looooong post. gerald was suggesting i should blog about things i've gone through during my 21 days fast. PHYSICAL-challengedduring the 21 days, i've suddenly workload upon workload coming and never ending. which has never happened before. seng wee knows. everytime he msn me, i'll go "eh. ttyl okay? busy now ar." even during lunch hour i'm working. really really tired. and the funny thing is no matter how tired i was, i don't fall asleep as fast as i usually do. EMOTIONALLY-challengedits during this period i came to know of some dislike feelings some friends have of me. i know i've neglected cg sometime back and got too engrossed with ministry. little did i know i've lost that place in some hearts, and even had people disliking me. given the cold shoulder or on-the-surface treatments. struggled with this for a week plus before i decided to talk about it and apologise for my neglecting cg attitude. thanks to 2 dearies that helped me talk to the rest too. made that decision to press into cg people's lives more & spend more time with them, especially with multiplication around the corner. boy. i seriously love God for being a relationship/friendship mender. not only are my friendships with cg members mended, the relationship is better than before, even more bonded. to mil/tiffi/ruby/zi: sometimes it sounds really dry & boring like some scripted feelings, but i genuinely wanna shout it out loud & clear, right here, right now that YOU 4 BABES NEVER FAIL TO BRIGHTEN UP MY LIFE! its great to be part of this wild/fun/crazy(whatever else we can be) click! i wanna do more with you 4. like really be there as much as possible be it in good or bad times in your lives! i know ruby's gonna go, "aww cass". heh.SPIRITUALLY-challengedi know many times the devil taunted me to rest a day during my fasting period, entering thoughts of not praying for a day or not reading the bible. trying to fit thoughts of telling lies, gossip, backstab, lusts in me. i've also never failed to slap myself whenever wrong thoughts come my way. i'm really glad i've learned to lean upon God for His strength & wisdom to carry out this 21 days fast and keeping the devil's evil thoughts at bay. little things like this that make me feel victorious when i didn't fall & succumb to them. this fast was for a few things(in no certain order whatsoever): - my spiritual life to be led higher and to have a deeper relationship with God. i'm definitely not as lazy previously when it comes to reading the Bible or to pray. i anticipate it much more to come into contact with God & increase my knowledge of His Word- ministry to go to another leveli know i'm moving steathily up the ladder of responsibilities. i know i am & will continue to. - cell group to be even more bonded and that will remain after multiplication. everyone's more open to each other and seen lesser in their own clicks too often already! - the EOY big AN zone camp- pledge an amount that will touch God's heart & have His strength & wisdom to fulfill it even before BF has started, God's already blessed me with a higher paying job. (thanks jolin!) i've achieved oh-gosh-ALOT. and emerged victoriously many battles with the devil. i think he knows jolly well i'm untouchable. according to FT2's lesson 9, Jesus will come back for a second time to judge the wicked. i can't wait for that time to see Him throw the devil into hell to suffer. please pardon me if i laugh wickedly. cos that's where the devil belongs to - the best of the best place most suitable for him. OKAY, DONE. now for a backtrack of friday - sunday. (: fridaysupposed to work half morn but overslept. went to jolin's company for the interview. i've decided to join them. went home to slack before meeting up with chris, momo & janet to get the refreshments. MACARONI WITH CAMPBELL SOUP! cg was great. played H2O. screamed here and there. adorable members. haha. fellowshiped till quite late at chris's before everyone bid goodbye. hitched a cab-ride from charlotte to clarke quay. chatted a little on the way there. tired, yet another satisfyingly spent friday. saturdaydid support & communion before service. it feels like eternity since Pst Tan last preached! its when you still can copy notes up to 3-4 pages even though its a repeated sermon that feels great. never fail to receive new revelations. towards the end of service, God's presence was ultimately strong. teared like nobody's business. quite comical cos i caught this lil girl sitting in front of me staring at me like i needed a lollipop to stop me from crying or something. haha. but, really wonderful. fellowshiped at airport. none other than popeye's again. headed home with sam after that. (: sundaymet wyelin to have our tanning session at sentosa. we SHOULD have tanned in cafe del mar la. what keppel marine family day. sooooo many bangladesh. take indirect pictures with us like we don't know. stared at us like we are tanning nude or what. bleargh. at vivo, impulsed buy-ed a top from topshop & a leggings. SIGH. rather have kept the money to buy that polka-dotted flats at pandora's box. !@#$%^&* met wk & tim after dinner at 8plus(2 slow pokes!). headed to thomson for some pasta. started to feel slightly queasy & skipped dinner. ate a lil of what wyelin couldn't finish. played games. tim (sorry la. you were really funny. can't help mentioning your name) is sucha clown/cheaterbug. make me & wyelin laugh till tummy hurt, aching jaw. BUT, its great fun to have both wk & tim as friends. don't be fooled by that serious & scary look you see in every security personnel. they are CRAZY people out of their uniform! i think this is one of my longest post ever. those that have read all the way to here, i thank you. email/sms me if you want reward. haha. i never knew multiplication would be THAT soon. God, i pray that multiplication this week would be joyous. but, please control my tears.
